Summer love

As always, when it's late spring / early summer, I get myself in all kinds of trouble - spiritually speaking, of course. But, this time, I think that I "fell" for the wrong girl. And it's hard to accept it and to just let go.

This tune is by Florida Inc., it's called "Let me love you" and it pretty much describes my feelings and state of mind for somebody special. Names are not important.

If you want to listen to it, right click here and choose "Save as".

Lyrics:

Baby, I just don't get it -
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smell the perfume,
The make-up on his shirt.
You don't believe his stories,
You know that they're all lies.
Bad as you are, you stick around
And I just don't know why...

If I was your man, baby you,
(You'd) never worry 'bout what I'd do
I'd be coming home, back to you
Every night, doin' you right.
Every type of woman - deserves good things
Fistful of diamonds - hand full of rings.
Baby you're a star,
I just want to show you, you are.

You should let me love you,
Let me be the one to
Give you everything you want and need.
Baby, good love and protection,
Make me your selection.
Show you the way love's supposed to be...
Baby you should let me love you,
Love you, love you, love you...

Your true beauty's description.
Looks, so good - that is hurts
You're a dime plus ninty-nine
And it's a shame
Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go, they stop and stare
'Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes
Outta control, baby you know...

If I was your man, baby you,
(You'd) never worry 'bout what I'd do
I'd be coming home, back to you
Every night, doin' you right.
Every type of woman - deserves good things
Fistful of diamonds - hand full of rings.
Baby you're a star,
I just want to show you, you are.

You should let me love you,
Let me be the one to
Give you everything you want and need.
Baby, good love and protection,
Make me your selection.
Show you the way love's supposed to be...
Baby you should let me...

You deserve better girl,
You know you deserve better!
We should be together girl, baby...
With me and you it's whatever girl, hey!
So can we make this thing ours?

(3x)
You should let me love you,
Let me be the one to
Give you everything you want and need.
Baby, good love and protection,
Make me your selection.
Show you the way love's supposed to be...

Big City Life

In my last post, I was talking about life and living in a small city/town.
Of course, there had to be a sequel.

Where should I begin...

It's just so f**ked-up, waking up every morning with a head-ache, because you have realized over-night - in your sleep - that you have to do this-and-that and you won't have the time or means.
Hey, but you've been through all this before and you're still alive -- for now.

So, you go on. You get something to eat. You might call it breakfast. Stop kidding yourself, it's not breakfast, it's some snack/junk food that you keep around.

The big moment has arrived. You're leaving the house. Two minutes later, you see it. Madness, chaos. A sea of people, cars and then more people. Most of them see each other and pass each other every day. Do they stop to say something? No. Never. They just don't care.

You get to work. Finally. Salvation at last. Is it? Neah, it would have been too easy... Were you expecting peace and quiet? Wake up, you're not the star of this movie; you're just the boy/girl that's sitting in a corner, being ignored. And you say to yourself: "It will all change, someday". Perhaps, it will. But until then, this is your life and you have to deal with it.

[Please, remind me, why am I telling you this? Oh, I forgot... Beacuse this isn't just my imagination. It's happening to you, too.]

Hey, you know what? Let's skip the job part. Done.
You get home. By now, it's 7-8 in the evening (if you're lucky). You must be hungry. Late lunch (or, rather, dinner) anyone? By the time you finish eating, you're completely relaxed and probably, the TV just happened to turn itself on. What to do? Stay home and watch a crappy movie or go out with some friends? (You have friends? Wow! 5, 10, more than 20?)

What a shock... You went out.
You find a nice, quite place, where you can spend a couple of hours with your dear friends. You say to yourself: "Now, that's more like it. Finally, a fair ending for this day." But, guess what? All your friends are talking about their jobs and shitty lives and having no spare time and the f**ed-up big-city-life...

End of story. Period.

It might seem to you, that I'm too frustrated about my life. That may be true. But, at least, I'm not afraid to admit it!

Small City Life

I went home last week-end. I just felt the need for some time away from all this run-around, that comes with living in a big city. I didn't think it over; just packed my bags and took the first train...

I had time to spend with my closest friends, chatting about all the small things and time seemed to stay still, like it usually seems in a small town, like Braila.

But, to be truthfull, it all really was about seeing Veronica. And when you're with the person you love, time is always againts you... As usual, we tried to do so many things together and managed to do so little... We were prepared to go on a picnic; it rained. We walked in the park, but the wind sent us home quickly. In the end, we had a few moments of peace, that both of us are waiting for, every other week-end.
It's hard being so far away from her, but then again, I'm a fighter and I won't let go easily!

The Streets - "Blinded by the Lights"

This is a sweet tune, that's driving me fuckin' crazy lately!
It's a brit band, with a pure brit accent and of course it's strange south London lifestyle.
It's depressing, but I can relate to it most days...

If you care to listed to clips from their songs, this is the official site:
The Streets

Anyway... these are the lyrics.


"That's the one, Oi
How did he not find the baggy, with his hand in my shoe?
Way too close for me, ah, well at least they allowed me through.
Should be a good night in here, Ramo in the main room,
People keep pushing me though, no reception on the phone.
And I'm thinkin'...

CHORUS:
[Lights are blinding my eyes]

They said they'd be here, they said, they said in the corner,
And I'm thinkin'...

[People pushin' by, then walkin' off into the night]

These look well speckly, a bit green and blue,
Threes is well cheap though, so I'll take three if I need to.
Right, I'm on the plan, I wish the bouncers would go away,
Borrow water off this man, here goes nothing -- OK,
And i'm thinkin'...

[Lights are blinding my eyes]

Argh, that's proper rank, that tastes like hair-spray
And I'm thinkin'...

[People pushin' by, then walkin' off into the night]

I hate coming to the entrance, just to get bars on my phone,
You have no new messages, so why haven't they phoned?
Menu, Write message, "So where are you and Simone?"
Send message, Dan's number, where've they gone?
And I'm thinkin'...

[the Lights are blinding my eyes]

Why's the message pending? Where the fuck are ya?
And I'm thinkin'...

[People pushin' by, there walkin' off into the night]

Hmm, brandy or beer? Waters a good idea,
Wish that bar lady'd appear; and come serve over here.
Where the fuck could they be? Still not over in the corner,
This night's a tragedy, I keep thinking I saw her.
And I'm thinkin'...

[Lights are blinding my eyes]

No thats not them, thats not them either...
And I'm thinkin'...

[People pushin' by, then walkin' off into the night]

I'm still not feeling anything, this has got to be a dud.
It's been ages since I necked it, I smoked six tabs to the nub.
Belly's not even tingling, I just feel a bit pissed...
No-one looks like minglin', I can't see her or him...
And I'm thinkin'...

[Lights are blinding my eyes]

I'm gonna do another, I think. Yeah, one more, these are shit.
And I'm thinkin'...

[People pushin' by, then walkin' off into the night]

These toilets are a piss take, queue's bigger than the door.
Gotta get rid of this pill taste, what are they chattin' so much for?
Glad I'm not a girl in this place, they'll be here til dawn.
Sure my belly's tingling a bit, summat's happening I'm sure.
And I'm thinkin'...

[Lights are blinding my eyes]

Maybe I shouldnt have done the second one, I feel all fidgety and warm...

[People pushin' by, then walkin' off into the night]

Whoa, everything in the room is spinning, I think I'm going to fall down,
My heart's beating too quick, I'm fucking tripping out.
I wonder whether they got in, turned away no doubt.
Who cares, this is a tune coming in, that one where he's just like..
I'm thinkin'...

[Lights are blinding my eyes]

My eyes are rolling back, I'm rubbing my thighs with my hand.
And I'm thinkin'...

[People pushin' by, then walkin' off into the night]

Yeah, yeah, they cheer - can they see my hand in the air?
Need to wave'em over here. Swear Simone's kissing Dan.
My head is twisted severe, body's rushing everywhere,
They could have texted me when they were near, but I'm fucked and I don't care.

[Lights are blinding my eyes]

What was I thinkin' about? Ah, who cares, I'm maaaashed.

[People pushin' by, then walkin' off into the night]

Totally fucked, can't hardly fuckin' stand.
This is fuckin' amazing -- argh."